Found in some old pictures and papers:
There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.
One of these days is Yesterday with its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone.
The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow with its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.
Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds - but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet unborn.
This leaves only one day - Today. Any man can fight the battles of just one day; it is only when you or I add the burdens of those two awful eternities - Yesterday - and Tomorrow - that we break down.
It is not the experience of Today that drives men mad - it is remorse or bitterness for something which happened Yesterday and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring.
Let us, therefore, live but one day at a time....
Anonymous
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Laid Off
I was laid off today. In fact, my team of 4 was laid off. I truly loved that job and the people I worked with. I feel a bit sick and still a bit shell-shocked.
So, I came home and filed for unemployment, applied for 4 jobs, updated my resume on Monster and Career Builder, contacted those in my network, cut off every extraneous bill, and finally reached that point in my mind I had been trying to avoid all day.
I had to think about how my patterns are stopped. I won't be waking up and heading into work tomorrow. I'll just wake up. I cannot be without work. Much of my self worth is determined by it. Not to mention, my income has ceased, and I live alone (minus the two ever faithful basset hounds).
Oddly enough, I did not cry today. I teared up a little, but that was it. I was more sad of the loss of my team than the actual job. I had never worked with a better group of guys. I really hate to think of working with anyone else. It's almost like a divorce you didn't want, where you have to learn to eventually move on to someone else and you don't know if you can stand it.
I spent the last year pouring myself into my work. I was dedicated, loyal, did nothing wrong, and felt as if I was making a difference. Now some outsourcing firm will rush in and take over. There will be no pride in making things work and making sense out of madness. It will only be chasing many, many dollars with no care for the people they serve. Why would a company want that? I don't know. Even financially speaking, they will certainly pay more for outsourced technology than all of our salaries combined. They forget that consultants don't work for free after 40 hours or on holidays.
So, I'm up now, and of course sleep seems impossible. I hate uncertainty, and boy, am I in an ocean of it. Living alone sucked enough, but now I will be facing the days alone too. I don't think I am built for that. Then again, no one really is I guess.
So, I came home and filed for unemployment, applied for 4 jobs, updated my resume on Monster and Career Builder, contacted those in my network, cut off every extraneous bill, and finally reached that point in my mind I had been trying to avoid all day.
I had to think about how my patterns are stopped. I won't be waking up and heading into work tomorrow. I'll just wake up. I cannot be without work. Much of my self worth is determined by it. Not to mention, my income has ceased, and I live alone (minus the two ever faithful basset hounds).
Oddly enough, I did not cry today. I teared up a little, but that was it. I was more sad of the loss of my team than the actual job. I had never worked with a better group of guys. I really hate to think of working with anyone else. It's almost like a divorce you didn't want, where you have to learn to eventually move on to someone else and you don't know if you can stand it.
I spent the last year pouring myself into my work. I was dedicated, loyal, did nothing wrong, and felt as if I was making a difference. Now some outsourcing firm will rush in and take over. There will be no pride in making things work and making sense out of madness. It will only be chasing many, many dollars with no care for the people they serve. Why would a company want that? I don't know. Even financially speaking, they will certainly pay more for outsourced technology than all of our salaries combined. They forget that consultants don't work for free after 40 hours or on holidays.
So, I'm up now, and of course sleep seems impossible. I hate uncertainty, and boy, am I in an ocean of it. Living alone sucked enough, but now I will be facing the days alone too. I don't think I am built for that. Then again, no one really is I guess.
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